New Year's Resolve

New Year's Resolve
Blog Writers - Sat Jan 04, 2014 @ 04:58PM
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“You only have a few days left until…”  Stop, Pastor.  Don’t say it.  “2014.”

The four numbers whack me in the head and I fall silent.  Only a few... to be precise, two measly days left of 2013.  And then 2014 will be here. I can’t look up.

So, instead, I nod numbly.  It seems like we just started this year with the birthday and I just took the amazing trip and I just finish Summer Pursuit.  And now, over?  Already?  Where did the time go?  Where does 2013 slip away to? 

You see, my list of goals or resolutions for 2013 was long.  Very long.  So long, in fact, that I feel discouraged to even look at my list and the sparse checkmarks.

Because what do you do when you want solutions, not just resolutions?

No, I didn’t get accomplished everything done that I wanted to. 

Then I hear it.“When you don’t feel the growth, it is still there.  He is still growing you, even when you can’t see the growth happening.”

The Pastor hits the hammer and the nail dives into me.  The growth.  I don’t always feel it.  But it’s there...

"How was your year?" a friend can ask.  And we can put on a broad grin and make ourselves look very polished, and say it like a string of notes: "Wonderful."  But deep down inside, where we're raw and truly unpolished, we know the truth.  We know how we messed up too many times, ate too much junk food, didn't read enough, spent too much time on technology, and so on.  We know that masterpiece plan we made at the beginning of the year for diligently exercising crumbled, and the resolution to read our Bible every day went right through the roof.  Deep down in our heart of hearts, you and I remember how we messed up at the recital and didn't play enough with our younger siblings....and we remember how our manifesto to memorize Scripture shattered into a thousand pieces. 

Cause no matter how perfect we can make our lives look, the truth is, we're all failures.  We can pretend to have it all together….when, really, behind close door’s we’re a big mess.  We can be all smiles with our friends, and all angry frowns with our family at home.  Our rooms can be clean and in order when your friend comes over – but thank goodness they didn’t see it yesterday!

2014 has arrived, so soon it seems - but really, in God's perfect timing.  I am excited for this new year.  I know I won't be perfect (none of us will be!), and I know not everything will go according to my plans.  But I am SO eager to see what adventures we will go on this year.  I don't know if there'll be weary ways or golden days - but I know He walks with me always. 

..."But one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,  I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."  (Phil. 3:13-14) 

Happy new year!

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